The Light in the Darkness...

There’s something about darkness

That reminds me that the light is ever near

After all, without trials and pain

How would I ever experience all of God’s love and care?

 

The valley seems a long journey,

Though God will bring me through,

Through all of my trials, through all of my pain,

Through all of things, that leave me feeling blue.

 

I pray for faith, and then back down

When He sends the opportunity for my faith to grow,

Then I regret, and beat myself up

Over the very things that I know!

 

I can’t claim ignorance, just weakness

Resenting it every second of the day;

Until I finally give in, accept my losses

And fall on my knees to pray!

 

It seems like a vicious cycle, though necessary

If God would have me succeed,

In order to believe, in order to mature and accept

That He will always meet my need!

 

My need right now, is for my faith to mature

For my faith to replace my fear...

To rely on JESUS’ strength and not my own,

To EXPERIENCE all of God’s love and care...

 

I am a strong Christian, who God has enlightened

I know the TRUTH that set’s me FREE...

I am a child of the King,

Because JESUS died for me!

 

Written: February 24, 2006

©Corina Ash

This poem reflects my own PERSONAL experience within my Christian walk...

It's sort of like looking in through a window at myself; and seeing God's reflection in the background (from the reflection of the window ---) I know He's there...I see my own errors, but somehow I'm HELPLESS to do anything about it. (Which is frustrating...)

Recently, I've done something that I shouldn't have...I've backed down from what God is calling me to do, because of feelings of inferiority...and offcourse, the doubt that takes root!

I find myself discerning what's going on, which again means "IGNORANCE" isn't an excuse...However, for some reason beyond my control I can't rise above it.

I don't know if there's anyone else (who reads this) can relate to this concept of FALLING SHORT, and then slowly TORTURING yourself ...But I can tell you, it's no fun.

Anyway, there's a happy ending to this story...Psalm 31: 1 - 5 sums it up pretty good:

1 In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge;
       let me never be put to shame;
       deliver me in your righteousness.

 2 Turn your ear to me,
       come quickly to my rescue;
       be my rock of refuge,
       a strong fortress to save me.

 3 Since you are my rock and my fortress,
       for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

 4 Free me from the trap that is set for me,
       for you are my refuge.

 5 Into your hands I commit my spirit;
       redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth. 

(and yes, I realize everything must be put into context...but God does hear our cry for help, and He alone is our only source of strength. We must turn to Him (even though sometimes, that's not always easy...)

As 2 Chronicles 7: 14 states..."If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray, and will seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.")

I claim that.

God BLESS.

(IF THIS POEM HAS SPOKEN TO YOU, I'D ASK THAT YOU'D LEAVE A COMMENT - THIS POEM IN PARTICULAR God has burdened me with; And I believe that it's going to speak to more than just me!)

Wow, yeah that spoke 2 me. :) VERY good. You have a wonderful gift, Corina!! And the best part is, you use it to bring glory to the Lord. ;) TTYL! :P

I believe that we all struggle with not accepting everything God calls us to do. Feelings of inadequacey but eventually, when we want to really hear and reply, God holds us up with strength to get it done. Well done! Loved the way you expressed your thoughts and trials.


Corina's Response:

It's true, that God does PROVIDE the strength (If everything is according to his WILLl, and his TIME...) ~ As for the way I express myself: I don't know any other way to say it. It's as if it has been one vicious cycle...I've been in this predictament before...and it hasn't gotten any easier to rise above it. (Ofcourse, I do know that I will...but that doesn't make it any less painful while I'm "here" - wherever "HERE" is! )

Thanks for dropping by, and taking the time to share your thoughts.
God BLESS

I Love your poems!!

Hey Corina..your poems always come straight from your heart girl, and this last one was AWESOME! You may have backed down from what God has called you to do Corina, but stand back up, give the old stinking devil a black eye, and rise back up to the challenge..I'm praying for you girl..I love ya *HUGS*


Corina's Response:

...I only wish it were that easy! ...Each time I fail, it gets harder to make another attempt.(Ofcourse, God knows all of this - so I'll just leave it with him.)

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Hi Cornia, so nice to hear from you! I love so much of what you write. It surely bless' me. Keep up the closeness with Christ for it shines through in your writing.
P.J.

Corina's Response:
...funny... ...I don't feel that close right now. Actually, I feel like I'm miles away from where I'm suppose to be - Not LOST....just lagging. God is dealing with me, and I'm struggling (with "me!") --- beating my head of that imaginary wall (I call stubborness!) .

anyway, thanks for dropping by. I appreciate the encouragement. God BLESS!

hi,thank's for the msg u left in my place and a big big AMEN for psalms 31:1-5

in triumph, in tragedy, in joy and in disappointment there are always valuable, positive lessons you can learn...and Amen let's live with Christ Love

as you grow in wisdom, the difficulties will become less difficult to live through, and the joys will become more profound .God bless you and ur loveone's



Corina's Response:
Growing in wisdom is not my difficulty - Growing in FAITH is. But yeah, ur right anyway! L.O.L.

Hi
It was so nice to have you visit my web site, and to know you are praying for those that need prayer mentioned there. So many people need prayer.That was so sweet of you.
I like your name "Crimsome Shine" That remind me of an old hymn
I SEE A CRIMSOME STREAM OF BLOOD THAT FLOWS FROM CALVARY" You may have heard it.
YOu take care and God blessing be upon you.
Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths. Psalms 25:4
He has to kep away encouraging results until we lean to trust without them. Then he loves to make his word real in fact as well as Faith..
You have a nice site here......